Love eternal or despicable

I was just checking my blog and gosh i realized its been long since I have blogged something. It’s not that i haven’t had any marvelous insights in these few months. it’s just that I have been too lazy to actually write what I have been thinking.


I think its coz of the promise which i made to someone which made me to check ma blog again. I am actually that lazy to even peek @ ma blog regularly.

It actually started with me watching Twilight. I know half of the dudes will faint that some guy can actually get a serious thought seeing a girlish movie but yeah it did happen. Seeing Bella Swan and Edward Cullen i wondered is this you call love??Frankly speaking i somehow in these 22 years haven’t even had a feeling remotely close to Love. I always had this theory that love is all in your head. If you want it u will fall in it else it’s just a lame excuse for going around with some hot chick with whom you are desperately wanting to go to bed. But seeing the movie i thought maybe my "so" called hypothesis is just too shallow or maybe I’m too naive to understand the "truth".

People might have many versions or their "LOVE”. Me, with a lot of introspection found a version who i can be called mine (i know a lot of u won’t agree with this but i am not enforcing my theory on anyone).Mine is simple. I don’t believe in going all crazy for someone and to actually see your life in her rather her being a part of it. In today’s world everybody has got some aspirations and i somehow see it very unpractical that u can spend your whole life just thinking about family and other family related chores, as if u never existed. Gosh that’s too lame.

I am a very ambitious person and at times i do get selfish trying to fulfill my desires. I won’t like someone coming in between me and my aspirations. For me love is being with someone who can be around when there is no one. Someone sort of my last resort. There are times when the whole world is against you and you somehow want someone just listen to your foolish talk. Some people call them friends some call them parents but there have been times with me when i had practically no one to listen to my bullshit.I know most of the times its plain blabber with no sense but she still listens to u as if some hidden info is being poured to her. She sees not the person who i am but appreciates for the person who I am not. Maybe in the last few months i have desperately seeking for that certain someone but alas!!, i was too late to realize this.

I know in my version of love I’m again sounding too self centered but I can’t help it coz that’s the way i am but I think with me being self centred I don’t think in return I want anything from her. I won’t impose any restrictions on my love even if it means she marrying to someone else if in return she gives her time just to listen my blabber and nonsense like a child confronting his feelings to the God or his mother.



Anyways i think this concept is too naive or too complicated to give it a thought. So just Leave it here and Merry. Maybe those near me have become busy in their work and yeah they have the right to be. Maybe I’m missing some people and hence in this despair I’m hallucinating.

Cheers!!!



P.S. I was searching for this write up since days. Yesterday only when I was all alone trying to celebrate 31 all alone mesmerized in my loneliness I realized where I have kept the thing. So here it goes. Generally I wouldn’t have posted a bullshit like this but it’s for the promise I made.

Irony between choices

Life is unfair, but we can’t help it.
A normal human being is nothing more than a pest. His whole life is spent in search of basic needs.
I always hated this normal man's life, wanted to be among the elite 2%, for whom life is more than to earn so that at the end of the day he can feed himself and his children. I have despised those above and have loathed them.
But it’s not as simple as it looks. Only of desiring something doesn’t make you to achieve things. You need to sweat out so as to get a portion of what you have always dreamed of.
But sometimes even if you work hard generally people have to compromise, as one doesn’t exactly get what he would have desired.
At the end of the day you came home satisfied with your efforts and hopeful that you will get your due returns but alas!! things not always turn out the way you have wanted.
I have always hated the concept of this Compromise.
Why would i compromise with what i want to do just coz i am not suitable or not the person with the best of skills in it. Why would i like to twig my dreams just coz i know doing the other thing will bring me more fame and money.
I know some people would be thinking that the thought above and this are total contradictory because if i want to to be among the so called elites i have to see from a practical perspective rather to be emotional of my wants and be stubborn about my dreams, coz after all hard work isn’t the only thing compromise and sacrifice do play a lot of part to get your due returns if you want to weigh them on the balance of money and materialistic things.
But i terms of satisfaction it may be looming far behind.
As i realize this irony about my choice and life i am stuck with an option, a way where i get a balance of both of them.
As i set on my quest of discovering the truth all the best who are like me and struggling to get an appropriate answer